11.00 malam

song: Purnama Merindu - Siti Nurhaliza

was feeling so, so down earlier this evening. But now, I'm feeling much, much better now. After those words, thanks dear :) Entah kenapa, aku terlebih-lebih emo plak hari ni...ermm..but everything is ok now. Maybe I just want a teeny weeny bit of attention, that's all I ask for. And I finally I got it, after sulking for half of the evening? Even though, it happened after I apologise. But he apologise earlier, he knows there something wrong when I asked more of his attention. I know I should have understood his situation, but..ermm, guess I miss him and want more of his attention tonite. Thanks for the words, dear. You know I feel the same..*S*

haa..melancholy feeling aside..heh! Hari ni berbagai rasa yang ada. Pagi tadi, aku rasa risau. Worried about him.*why did I feel too much about and the found out late last night, you are in that situation. Coincedence?* Then, throughout the day, I feel fine. Was busy updating those ledger books. All was fine, till that phonecall. But maybe, I was too sensitive and him, too tired. But all is fine now..:)

Sambil dengar lagu Purnama Merindu ni, it reminds me of someone..someplace. It was I think, a few years back during one of my holidays at Century Makhota Hotel. Kira time mudo-mudo lah, sekarang ni tua dah..hee..:D Masa tu aku temankan my cuzzins at the swimming pool and there's this guy. And you know, he looks like who? Zamani..penyanyi pojaan sehingga sekarang..heh! Guess I just like his voice, his face (chinese look) and the long hair :) So meeting someone that was like him..wowee! Make my heart go faster..hee, and to cut the story short we soon got to know each other. Even my family liked him. He was a student under training therelah while doing his course. And our friendship go beyond that first meeting. During each of our holidays to Melaka, my family will stayed over there and we will meet. I secretly liked him at that time..hahah, just a crush kot? Entahlah, but I do like him. Tapi entah macamana, we lost contact. So what has my story got to do with Purnama Merindu? Well, that song was playing at the radio while I was standing at the balcony overlooking the swimming pool admiring him at work..hee. Aaa..forgot to mention, know what is him name? Zam..yes, it's for real. But not Zamani, of course..hee..

Got to sign off now.

To twinnie, thanks for the entry..ayarks, the countdown is what keep me going now. By the way, I've already applied for my leave. 2 weeks..yihaa! Sent my regards to Jaxx if you see him online. And you, don't get so stressed out. Ok? :)

To my dear, best of luck for your xm tomorrow. Thanks for everything..lebiu..*S*

~and it's 21 days still! ~

current song: When You Told Me You Loved Me

When you told me you loved me
Did you know it would take me the rest of my life
to get over the feeling of knowing
A dream didn't turn out right
When you let me believe that you weren't complete
Without me by your side
how could I know
That you would go
That you would run
Baby, I thought you were the one

switt drimmz now..till tomorrow..