1100 hrs

[Just wonder..]

It's already 11 and i'm only so called "officially" in the office..hee,well...of course reached office this morning at 9.30 am (late as usual..). After switching on the pc, checking my emails, i rushed out to the bank to deposit yesterday's revenue collection. That's my duty on every Saturday that I'm working. Just got back a few minutes ago.

ermm..wonder why I always get the mood to update whenever I'm in office..haa..don't know why. Maybe I'm kinda of getting off track here. Losing my interest and motivation. Don't know why. Maybe it's the people..or the environment. But I can't quit now. Not when I need the cash for a lot of things and not when the eco here is still very unstable. But nevertheless, I'm giving it a chance till next year. If I can't still shake off this feeling then it's adios and goodbye. Maybe it's me..can't stay put in a place for more than 3 years. That's what happen in my last job too. 3 years and one promotion and I'm out of there. But maybe it's just the office politics - backstabbing which gets to me. You know how this hinders your achievement at work. Well, I'm getting backstabbed now. No, it's not just my feeling. My boss said so too and she knew who is backstabbing me. It's just that she doesn't want me to know who it is. She just wants me to improve myself and prove that person wrong. But it's difficult trying to satisfy everybody, ain't? So take it or leave it. And it's also difficult to change one point of view of you when they got their view fixed. So till next year it is and we'll see from there where this lead to.

ermm..enough said of that. Grandpa will be discharge from hospital today. Guess there's nothing serious about his illness. Alhamdulillah..

Dia balik kampung with his sisters today. Will be missing him for the whole of next week..ermm..But in spite of this, insyallah we will be meeting again soon. Yesterday, finally got the courage to tell him that I want to come down and meet him in June and he agreed. Yihaa!! hee..even though it's going to be just a short break but nothing beats meeting him again..*S*

eh..nearly 11.30 already. Got to get some work done now. Have a good weekend!




0326 hrs

It's nearly 4 and I'm still awake. Well, it's because I only woke up at around..ermm, 11pm. Yeah, felt asleep around 7, woke up feeling very hungry. After reaching him after nearly 4 hours of trying (no reception..), feel relief to hear hisvoice again. But guess that is the last phone call till I hear from him again. Got to wait till hecall me. And when will that be..urhh, don't know but hope it's not too long. I'm missing him already..geez..luckily he's only gone for around a week. And insyallah one week after he got back, we'll meet again. The thought of it bring a smile to me again. But still I missed him!

So what did I do today? ermm..rushing off after work at 1pm (even though I was late for an hour for work today..opss!). Met Nen at the train station. Went shopping again, but it's her. Not me. And you know how tough it is to go shopping without the opportunity to spent..? And that's how I feel just now. I'm broke and can't afford to spent. And all the nice cloths and stuff had to go on sale..urhh, never mind, never mind..i'll be back, very soon! haa..!!

I'm actually also surfing around for a better site than blogger...ermm, thinking of shifting to a new host but we'll see eh..

Dear..I'm missing you already and it's only have been for a few hours..*sigh*

1315 hrs

Sorry for the no-update yesterday. Haven't been myself lately since I came back from the hols. Wonder izzit the post-holiday blues..or..ermm..let's hope I..we got over this fast. Don't like the silence between us..

Anyway, glad it's Friday again. Finally...have been dragging myself to the work this whole week. First sign that I need to switch job..again..? Coz this is how I felt before I left my first job around 6 years back. Boredom, dragging myself to work, losing interest..Well, gotta try to stick around with this current job. Don't like changes. But changes are part of life..? ermm..have to agree, but not now..

erkss..help me! Early this week, my office attendant came up to me pouring her heart out. About how she felt here at work. Naturally, I offered her some consolation and even offered to type out her email to be sent to my superior to alert them of her problems. Just doing my part. But now, every lunchtime she will come and park herself at my workstation..and pour out the same problems to me..over and over again..arghh! This has become quite frustrating..ermm..I promise I'll help but I can't stand it when my lunchtime hour is preoccupied with her. And I also don't want the bosses who walked past my workstation have the thoughts that we are hatching something against them. Urghh..I've had it! So now, I just stared at my pc and let her babble on and on. Feel bad, but you got any other way to do it?

Apologies again if my blog seems to go downward these days. I need to overcome this feeling first..and hope everything will be fine again..soon we hope..

Grandad will be having his x-ray and tests today. Hope everything goes well..insyallah..







Old. You'll have a long (happy?) life and you'll
die at a very elderly age. Like 80 or
something. Nothing to roll your eyes at, eh?
Probably from a disease or something. You
wanted to die young, because you're a bit of a
slug and don't have many goals, but you never
get what you want.


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1330 hrs

Lunch time coming to an end. Called him just now, he's at Seremban waiting for his sis..ermm, guess things are getting better between us. The magic of the 3-words does work eh..hee, but that comes only after so much tears and heartache. But thankfully it works..*S*

So much for that, there's something actually bothering me since this morning. What my mom said.."jangan letak harapan sangat, mak ayahnya tak jumpa lagi." I just kept quiet. Got no replies for that or guess there's the truth beneath that? But for certain, it did strike something inside me. So what's the use of being in love, having a relationship? Isn't it like gambling? You never know if you will win or lose but nevertheless you still gamble. Right? Like what he said before,"the risk of being in love in breaking up. But we must try to make it work, won't we?" Making it work, that's what we are doing now. And leave the rest to Takdir.

Managed to call Grandpa at the hospital just now (no visitors are allowed at public hospitals for the time being due to the SARs outbreak)...ermm, could hear his voice breaking. I was trying hard not to let my voice break too. Realise just how much I missed his presence at home now..ever realised just how much you miss someone when that person is no longer by your side. Just hope he get well soon. Insyallah..

opss..it's 1.35pm already. Got to get back to work now.

Wonder why the tears flowed easily lately..could it be I'm missing you badly already...

Agak-agak boleh turun KL lagi tak bulan 6 nie..hee..Keje gile..! :D Just feel like ending nicely what had ended in a wrong way..in other words, putting things right?





o_O Another fancier of the old. Good for you I
guess. Charles is seen as a fatherly-type of
person, and is one you can open up to. He is
known to be amiable and very dependable. His
genius is only surpassed by his love and
understanding of other people. He makes for a
great companion with much affection, plus, the
baldness *is* kinda sexy.


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Haven't been doing this for quite sometimes yeah? hee..

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Just would like to share something which crosses my mind while I was watching X-Men on RCTI, Indonesian Channel. I was just thinking what will happen if I quit my job..change my job..? Just a thought actually, haven't been thinking about it at all. Not at this moment, in this current unstable situation of economy. But it just got me thinking..are we all having a dream job..The current job position we are holding..is it something we dream of..? Or it is just like a savior..something that you survive on. It's just a job, nothing more or less. Yes, you could say that you like or love your job. But it is your dream job? Something that you've always dream of..? eh..but wait, don't think too much about it, ok. It's just a flickering thought..;)

And one more thing..read the paper this morning. Feature an article on Keanu Reeves, the current shooting star of Matrix Reloaded. Well, his stars are not shooting exactly. He is always on depressed mood. His problems are real problems that even The One couldn't solve. His first born was still-born. His girlfriend who was driven to depression, started to cling on drugs and depressants pills to help her go on with life. And this badly affected their relationship. Not long after that, she was involved in a car accident and died. As if these didn't trouble Keanu enough, his beloved sister who had been suffering from leukemia fell critically ill thus Keanu had to leave the Matrix site to attend to his sick sister. And he further sank into depression when the actress who acted as Oracle, suffered a heart attack and died. Following to that, Aalliyah too who had agreed and signed up to play a role in Matrix Reloaded died in an air accident.

Keanu quotes that"Even though it's good that you don't have to think about paying bills or anything else..but money can't buy everything.." And I absolutely agree with that. Everything is money, but money is not everything..and fame..is not all fame...

2347 hrs

Avril Lavigne - Why

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even when you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go ahead and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

The more I hear this song, the more I find it suit my current situation..*sigh* Why...

Haven't find the spirit and momentum yet to update on my hols. Just hold on and bear with me for the moment eh..?

1758 hrs

i'm back, people! Well, actually i reached the homeground yesterday at 5pm but was too tired and burned out to lay my words down here...ermm, have been a quiet 2 weeks here eh? Guess my guest writer was too busy, nevermind. I'm back now but not with a vegence. Rather with a mellow mood out of missing someone already and the good times we had during the hols.

Was so mellow till I got to give the office a miss even though I was due back today. Need to rejuvenate the post-holiday blues. At this times, it will cross my mind..why couldn't I met someone here..so we will not be keep apart by the thousand miles between us. But if I had met someone here, I wouldn't have meet him right? *wink*

Got to stop right now. I'm going to the clinic. Got any medicine to cure this lovesick? hee..;)

Be back later!

0144 hrs

Current vid: watching Linkin Park performance - Faint *to keep these heavy eyelids open..*

Finally..finished my packing at this early hours. He just finished his packing too. Finally..the long awaited 14th May 2003 is here..:) So this will be my last entry till another..ermm, 2 weeks? Approximately lah..Maybe my guest writer will drop her entry once in a while.

Need to get myself some sleep now. Will be leaving by coach at 9 tomorrow. Have to leave home by 8 am. So see ya people..enjoy the holidays, dont miss me yeah..hee..:D

See you soon!

1729 hrs

[Countdown..]

Current song: Somewhere I Belong - Linkin Park

Another weekend is here again. Sorry for the no-update yesterday. Was too tired or just merely taking a break? ermm..not really tired anyway but was tired..erkss, confusing? Forget it then..hee..Well, yesterday I was at work. It was my off day yesterday but got to work to replace the next Saturday which I will not be coming as I will be on leave.

Manage to complete what I want to do. Stay back for awhile clearing whatever I could.

My worklist as follows:


• send virements for approval done
  
  
• prepare Pac@Gov report for SYD done
  
  
• do refreshments payments done
  
  
• prepare transfer warrants for auditor
  
  
• filing of miscellaneous transfer warrants
  
  
• process virements
  
  
• collate problems login to NFS Helpdesk. Submit in arch file done
  
  
• put up journal adjustment for SYD - pending their instruction
  
  
• prepare payment for stamp order and submit for payment done
  
  
• submit Debit for Authorisation letter for signature done
  
  
• prepare D-Pay payment - pending TMP submission
  
  ermm..so can I take half day off tomorrow? I need to do some shopping for the trip *need to get some things for him and myself*. No better time if not tomorrow. Coz I will be staying back on Tuesday to clear up my work before my hols. So it's tomorrow right? Hope my supervisor will let me off.
  
  Getting more excited for the trip. Same goes for him. Have been counting the days..:)
  
  But before that a few errands to run:
  
  Buy things for him and myself
  
  Settle phone bills
  
  Get passport photo of myself for the Golden Point Award submission
  
  Prepare Golden Point Award submission
  
  
  opss..it's nearly 6 now. Got to go off now...*actually I'm just blabbering today eh? ermm..got an empty mind today*. Anyway, here's the countdown..
  
  ~ 2 more days..*S* ~
  
  Dear, why are you so lovey-dovey lately..hahah..so romantic all of sudden :P But nevertheless, it's nice for a change eh? *wink*
  
  
  
  
  You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely
  devoted to others,especially that one
  person.You really can't get them out of your
  head,but then,you don't really want to.
  
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  Hopelessly Romantic Geezer Named Alfred
  
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  erkss! Me Alfred??!! haha..whatever. Just for the fun of it..*smile*
  

0915 hrs


Morning ppl! It's a wet, friday morning eh..? Me got caught in the rain, all wet now..anyway, couldn't stay long. Just for the countdown..


~4 days more to go..! ~

Later...

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2201 hrs

--Versi BM--

ermm..rasa nak back to the roots plak malam ni, boleh kan? Rasanya lebih terluah apa yang aku rasa sekarang ni in my good, malay language. So excuse me, will you? ;)

Sebenarnya, bukanlah apa pun. Tapi rasa dak seronoklah malam ni..ermm, sebab conversation tadi kot. Entahlah, kadang-kadang terasa diri ni macam second best je. No matter what I do, I can never change my position to be the best. Bukanlah aku nak jadi yang terbaik dan singkirkan sesiapa yang menjadi penghalang untuk aku ke atas..tapi..hmm..I want to be the best for him.Always be there thru his ups and downs. Tapi aku sedar, takkan apa yang sudah terbina bertahun-tahun lamanya boleh di hilangkan sekelip mata sahaja kan. It needs time, perlukan masa. Tapi janganlah jadi kan itu sebagai alasan..? Aku tak meraguinya, no for a moment do I doubt him. Cuma naluri wanita kan..sedikit sebanyak terusik juga. Itulah antara satu sebabnya aku tak pernah bertanyakan masa lampaunya. Sebab..pada aku, aku adalah hari ini dan mungkin masa depannya. Jadi, tak perlulah aku nak ambil tau perkara2 yang lepas. Unless he chose to tell me to, which he did in some occassions. But kalau tak, I will not push.

ermm..aku jeles ni? haha, memang aku jeles. Tapi tak adalah sampai timbul perasaan benci ataupun dendam. Cuma aku rasa cemburu. Itu aje. Tak salahkan..? Dia pun pernah kata aku ada hak untuk cemburu. Itu hak aku. *dia pun suka kot kalau kekadang aku jeles tu..hee..:P *

Ni bukan apa, sekadar meluahkan apa yang rasa sekarang ni. Rasa dak seronok, dak best..itu aje. Tak perlulah bagitau dia tentang apa yang aku rasa. Sebab dia lebih memahami kalau aku berdiam diri. Sebab diamnya aku tu lebih menzahirkan kan beribu rasa dari aku berkata-kata. That's me, and he knows it.

Ok, that is over and done with. Just nak zahirkan sedikit dari apa yang tersirat dan tersurat..;) Rasanya bukan versi BM ni, tapi versi rojak..cehh, hee..

--BI Version--

Actually, was supposed to have dinner and do some pre-shopping *window-shopping* after work. But got cancelled at the last minute as Nen got to rush home. Oh well..can go home early and catch "Hero" then. Have fallen all over again in love with Takuya Kimura..hee, fallen a few times before and now..? Fallen again! Just love his character in this 'Hero'. He's playing a prosecutor but he's not like the others who are always in tie, crisp outfit. Kuryu is only seen in his jacket, shirts and jeans. Cool and intelligent prosecutor, I should say. Really love his character..:)

Gotta get my rest now. Will be working tomorrow in exchange for not working next week. Need to work really hard if I want to go off on half day this coming Monday.

So ciao!

Before that, wishing every mother on this earth A Very Happy Mother's Day. Everybody can be a mother but not everybody can be a good one. But I have a good one and hope yours is too..:)

Ciao..till then!

Opss..forget to mention before that I met with the lady who helped me when I was giddy and nearly fainted in the train last month. I just smiled at her..*malu plak rasanya..hee..*

Nite!

2045 hrs

that's what I do during the lunch hours..answering quizzes..hee..;)

Me tired, sleepy. Need a rest. Will update later if I could find the "strength" and mood..so ciao for now!

~5 days..~ *he's counting down too.. *S*

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1335 hrs



Pink:
You see the world in bright pink. The world is a
happy, happy place! You love all people and
things!! Life is great! You're just like a
happy child. Spread the cheer.



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2115 mlm

Yeah, yeah..I'm guilty of this crime. Doing quizzes non-stop..hee, this thing is addictive eh? But it's interestinglah..:) Anyway, it's only 9.15 pm but I'm so sleepy. Why I wonder..? But isn't that what I always feel on a working week..tired, sleepy. And lazy the next morning..hee..

Well, today is just normal day at work. Doing payments, invoices and what not. Went to the bank to submit payroll diskette for the elderly to get their pay this coming Monday, 12th May (maintenance fee from the children..ermm, painful right? Got their own kids but got to squeeze the money out of them. Their kids are instructed by the Court to pay their parents every month for their living expenses as these old people are living on their own or staying with their other kids who are not so well off). Manage to get some work done before running off to do some personal errand..*hee, curi tulang jap..* Went to the ATM nearby to withdraw some cash, luckily a colleague drive me to and fro. Back in the office in 15 mins. Now that's fast! :) Get some more work done. Leave the office 15 mins before lunch break with a colleague. Take a cab to the bus station to buy the bus tix to KL next week. Yihaa! Another step nearer to my hols..:D After that, went for lunch and was back in the office by 1.30 pm. errmm..today is spent running personal errand on during working hours..*grin*

By 2 pm, was feeling so sleepy *hate lunch!*. Keep myself awake by updating my diary and doddling on the stick-on pad. Very sleepy. Keep on glancing at the watch. It finally strikes 5.30 after such an eternity. Was out in a flash..

Got a lot more errands to be done before running off for my hols..according to my green diary..hee..errmm, gotta get alot of it done latest by Monday. Will be taking time off on Monday should I be able to complete the office work by then. Insyallah..If not I will be rushing to complete those errands.

Have been very sempoi to work lately. With the sling back sling across the shoulder, shirt and pants. And just SANDALS! *wink* the holiday mood must have bite me real good without me realising it..

~6 days now..~

Dear..bought your tix yet? Or you are still at the snooker center? *S*

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Which Guilty Gear X character are you?

2314 hrs

Current music: Karma (Cokelat) ----> Intuition (Jewel) ----> Jaleo (Ricky Martin) ---> on repeat mode *trying to keep the eyes open with these upbeat songs*

Urghh!! I'm so tired, dead tired. Just woke up two hours ago. As a result of being "exile" to work from an offsite. Is not the work that had tire me out cause not much can be done after setting up of the laptops and configuring have taken much of the time. But it's the weather. The humidity in the crowded-no-circulation-of-air Computer Rooms with just the wall-fans blowing hot air (??!!) was killing me. It's so hot. And how do you get work done in that kind of environment. At that time I just long for my comfortable airconditioned office. Nevermind if I got my bosses and colleagues (a.k.a "stepsisters" - hahah, that what's my colleague said) breathing down my neck.

Was there from 2 to 4 in the afternoon. After going thru the CISCOs (policewomans) guarding the Home (btw, it's kinda of Rehab Home for girls - Toa Payoh Girls Home), declaring our health condition and taking our temperature, we were brought to the Computer Room for configuration and setting up of our laptops to access the necessary system to able us to proceed with work should our the SARs alert goes into "RED" (contigency plan). At 4, we finally packed. At that time, we were toddling with the ideas of sending back the laptops and going off straight home. Finally, after much talking and thinking we decided to go home. So after sending back the laptops, off we go.

By 6 pm, I was already home. Taking my ermm..lunch? Or dinner? hee..didn't matter what you call it, but I was hungry. Really hungry. After lunch cum dinner, it was the bed next. Just couldn't bear to open my eyes any minute longer...zzz..

wowee!! It's a week away to my hols..So excited! :D Will be buying the tix either tomorrow or Thursday.

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Noorodn Anisaurs. Which means Toothed Lizard..Plesiosaurus, type of dino..erkss!! Sounds "dino" enuff? Try to check out your dino name here.

Or you are trying to figure out Am I A Mutant?.

My result: 77% Mutant! Who's a mutant? You are! And we're not talking just any, run-of-the-mill mutant. You're a mutant to the Nth degree! So now comes the tough part. You need to use those mutant powers for good, not evil. If the world needs saving, you need to be the one doing it, cause if not you, who? So strap on that suave, leather costume, find yourself a sleek jet of some sort, and get moving, because you, my friend, have work to do!

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New song by Jewel. Check out the lyrics!

Intuition

I am just a simple girl
In a high tech digital world
I really try to understand
All the powers that rule this land
They say Miss J’s Big Butt is boss
Kate Moss can’t find a job
In a world of post modern fad
What was good now is bad
It’s not hard to understand
Just follow this simple plan
Follow your heart
Your intuition
It will lead you in the right direction
Let go of your mind
Your intuition
Is easy to find
Just follow your heart


Signing off now to another day tomorrow...

~7 days~ *ermm, sounds familiar..Craig David..yeah, that's the one! hee..ciao!

Note: hmm..pretty long entry for someone who's tired and sleepy? *wink*

2232 hrs


-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


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You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.


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Just couldn't get enuff of this..:D

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2208 hrs

phewwwww..!! Monday is finally over and done with..and thankfully, without any blues attached to it...hee, just a holiday bug beginning to bite me. It bites me really bad..haha, till I got to find the enthusiasm to finish up my work. Couldn't let it bite me more!

The decision to stay back for awhile to finish up work begins to flatered when the clock strikes 4. Just feel like leaving there and then...hee, moreover when Nenny sms to meet up earlier. We had promised to meet today when she decided to stay back for awhile too. 5.30 sharp left the office. Met Nenny half an hour later. Went to the bank to deposit some cash also to drop of some library books at the bookdrop *gotta clear whatever errands before my depature..as if I'm leaving forever eh? hee..that's always the case, got a lot of last minutes errands to run before the hols..* But the 'FULL' sign was light up at the bookdrop..urhh! Don't tell me to lug these heavy books back home?! So Nen decide to go for dinner first and drop the books at the Esplanade Library. Went for a budget dinner *courtesy to Nenny..haha..thanks, twinnie :)* After the budget dinner *do you called spagetti chicken bolognaise a budget dinner? You decide..* went for a little shopping with no money in the wallet and that is really painful..heheh, but it has it's advantage too. No matter how much you want that sling bag, you can't never get it. Right?

Went straight home after dropping the books. Reach at around 9. Too full to have dinner. Well, I surpassed Monday with victory eh? *wink*

Tomorrow, I will be assign to offsite training duties for the SARs emergency activation training..duhh, don't know what to expect. But I can leave the office at 2pm..think, that's the best part of it? hee..

Will be buying my tix to KL this Wed...so it's 8 days more now? *S*

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0120 hrs

Gee..I can't sleep. Been tossing and turning in bed for the last hour *after watching Jerry MacGuire on local tv - the movie always got me teary-eyed.."you complete me..you had me at hello" - favorite lines..*wink* and still I can't sleep. But the moment, I switch on the pc, now then I feel sleepy..ermm, strange eh? Why I couldn't sleep? Did I miss him truly bad ('ve been missing him more and more as it get nearer to the day we'll meet..) or was I too hungry? *forget to take dinner, how could I forgot that?* Or I have had enough sleep? *couldn't be, I woke up just before "Each Other" after taking a nap since nearly 6 in the afternoon.* So why can't I sleep??! urhhh!

Anyway, got a good news over the yahoo messenger earlier this evening. One of my longtime chat friends is getting married on 24th May. And the good thing is I'll still be in KL. In time to attend his wedding. What a right timing! hee..So will be attending if Nenny will be coming down to join me. Gotta meet all our chat frends and that will be great! So Nen, tell your parents and get their permission ASAP ok..hee..must go! :)

So the reason I couldn't sleep was maybe I had a lot goin on in that 'thinking department'..hello there! I need some sleep here. Stop working. You've got a whole day tomorrow. I need to sleep. Quit working now!!

Gotta get some sleep now. It's nearly 2 in the morning. And since it's already Monday morning..

~it's 8 days then!~

Anyway, Paris really messed-up this time round eh?

1429 hrs

Just for a starter...


you want to be avril lavigne!


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haha, i want to be avril lavigne? That girl rocks, right?! hee..

So it's the weekend again...ermm, life is pretty scary right now eh? A week had gone by in the blink of the eye. And you may wonder, what have I done the past days, week or month? What have I achieve and done so far? And it's will get more scarier if your answer is "ermm..nothing much.." Life is falling away every seconds and nothing much is done..? That will be my answer too. How much can be done when life on weekdays is only basically filled with work. Morning, off to work. Spend the 10-12 hours at home (yipess! didn't realise the long hours spent at work!) Then it's back home. For dinner, watch a little tv maybe..prayers and it's off to bed for another day. Nothing much can be done, right? On weekends, all the laundry and spring cleaning occuppied most of the time. And also to spent some time with the tv-box (hee..time to catch those interesting saturday and sunday shows such as Majalah 3 or Cerekarama *if it's interesting enough*, PCK, Each Other and Gilmore Girls to end the day..). But nevertheless, the fast mode of life do have it's good at this moment. Haa..can packed up and off to my hols much more faster..hee, just can't wait anymore..:)

Yesterday, was nothing much too. But just couldn't find the right mood to sit and update the entries. Morning, was at work. What a fruitful saturday at work. Never have had so much work done on saturday. So satisfying! *S* Was on my way out of the office at 1pm when twinnie called. Wanted to meet me for awhile. "Miss me eh, Nenny?" :) Reach home at around 3 plus after a $2.50-really-broke-lunch at Burger King (which includes a burger cut in half and a iced-milo shared between us) Really broke eh? hee..:D Counting the days till we got "rich" again. But it always does not last for long...*wink*

Got a lot on my mind lately. But don't care to share with anyone. Maybe it's just small affairs of the heart. Will be able to solve it myself or just let it be gone? Just letting this Sunday slip away, dragging Monday with it. Hoping Monday does not come with the blues tagged to it? But if Monday never comes, how will my hols be here eh? *smile..*

Just something before I go. The X-Men 2 is so hot now. Wanna got and catch it. Maybe during my hols..enjoy!


You are Storm!

You are very strong and very protective of those
you love. You are in tune with nature and are
very concerned with justice and humanity.
Unfortunately, certain apprehensions and fears
are very hard for you to overcome, and can
often inhibit you when most need to be strong.


Which X-Men character are you most like?
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~9 days now..~

2254 hrs

zzzz..my eyes are getting heavier at the moment. Meant to post earlier, but..ermm..just couldn't find the right mood? But found the "mood" later..hee..

So here's my offline entry, written at 11 plus. While waiting for the d*mn, b***dy slow system to run, d*mn!! :
*ermm, this 'Angel' song is lulling me to sleep..zzz..Skip to 'Bad Girls'..haa, that's better.. "

1100 hrs

Heard this song over the radio this morning while on my way to work *got to have the radio plugs to my ear, as a wake up and inspiration to start the day..:) * //hey! This song mention that there's bad girls in Kuala Lumpur..no Singapore? suprisingly..hee..//eh, back to this offline entry..* All The Love in The World (listening to it now), sweet..sweet song. The lyrics used to mean so much to me. Now? ermm..don't know..*wink*

All The Love In The World

I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friend, I'm more than O.K.
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams but it's not all they say
Still I believe (I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...


(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world

I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't criticize it
I have no hestitaion
My imagination just stole me away
(Still...) Still I believe
(I'm missing) I'm missing something real
I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) Don't wanna wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give... all the love in the world

Love's for a lifetime not for a moment
So how could I throw it away
Yeah I'm only human
And nights grow colder
With no-one to love me that way
Yeah I need someone who really sees me...

(Don't wanna wake...) And i won't wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world
(Don't wanna wake up alone anymore...)


Before that were having this conversation with a friend of mine over yahoo messenger:

*switching to BM at this point*
Topic: Kawin

M - kalau boleh kawin kan senang. Lotih berchenta lama-lama ni..*gelak*

P - Tau pun, kawin jelah. Kan senang. Bagi sepenuh kasih sayang..

M - easier said than done. Cakap memang senang..*senyum* He's still studying..

P - Studi tu bukan halangan. Awak kan dah kerja. Lepas kawin pun boleh studi kalau hati mau..

M - Memang saya dah kerja. Tak kisah, saya boleh support semua expenditure. Tapi what will people said? My parents, his parents..takkan diaorang nak. Lepas kawin, what's next? Cakap memang senang *stick out my tongue*

P - Kawin perkara senang. Kita yang buat jadi susah.

M - Banyak benda nak fikir. Takkan nak kawin camtu jek. ala..easier said than done lah *gelak lagi*

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Conversation kita ended camtu je. Him, with his opinion and me with mine. Nobody is right or wrong. Ada betul jugak apa yang di katakan tu. But my conclusion is..easier than done..hee..Nantilah, pening kepala fikir pasal kawin ni. Apply cuti 2 minggu je, ada ke diaorang kata nak cuti kawin..ayarkkss!!

*switching to BI*

Anyway, my Friday is fine. He's good. What happened yesterday what forgotten and forgiven. Tomorrow will be hislast
and final paper.

The days are drawing nearer..*S*

opss..nearly midnite? ermm..gotta get myself some sleep now. Gotta get myself some sleep...till then!

1315 hrs

[Post-lunch..]

burpss!! opss..hee, feeling so full after lunch. Yeah, I had lunch today. Something that I don't do often..hee, on a diet you may ask? Naa..I just don't like to take lunch, find it will be so filling then feeling sleepy henceafter. Hate that! But today, the lunch is on the house..courtesy on my assistant director (called her "kakak tiri" - as in "step sister"..haha, because of the way she sometimes treat us). *aiyahh, my stomach is so full..erkss!

my mood today after the small incident yesterday night? ermm..better now, can't be entertaining this kinda of feeling too much. It will get to you and make your day worse. Worse still when you are at the office and not in the right mood. You will not be in the best position to complete you work. And I don't like that one bit. So I'm trying to maintain my mood now. He's feeling fine too. So it's kinda of infectious, you see? hee..:)

Now to get back to work, before the after-lunch-feeling get to me. Got a lot to finish up. Till then!

~11 days more to go..~

Note: There's an offline entry I made this morning. Will post it later..say tonite?

Ciao!!

4.20 petang

[May Labour Day..]

May Day! May Day! hee..ermm, isn't that the most famous word(usually it's scream or shouted..the word, I mean)in war movies *Pearl Harbour*. Nevermind. It's a holiday and I'm at home. Watched Gerak Khas, The Movie (yeah, yeah..just managed to catch it on local tv just now. I know the movie has been quite a while. But have never managed to watch it before.) So how's the movie? So-so lah. Stuck watching it from 1 till 3pm.

Before that, have done bookings for my trip in ermm..12 days? yihaa!! hee..so excited. Haven't been on holiday (and meeting him) since February. Is that long? naa..some would said it've been only 3 months. Yeah, 3 long and agonizing months for me..and for those who have got ourselves into this long-distance-relationship. Agree, people? :) My 7 days leave have already been approved. 7 longs day away from work..heaven eh? hee..but wait till you come back. Those hundreds (yeah, it's hundreds) emails, full-to-the-brim in trays with all those letters work waiting for you. Naa..don't want to think about all that yet.

Bookings done, leave approved. What else? Just need to get myself the coach tix, bought some things for the trip, finish outstanding work in the office and I'm off for the hols. Opss, don't forget the submission for the Golden Point Award...ermm, gotta get passport pics of myself. For the submission.

Tomorrow marks the end of another work week. Friday..mine favorite day of the week. Yours also? Nevermind if I'm working on this Saturday.

Dear, stunned by your reaction this morning. haha, spontaneous eh? *S*

~12 days...~

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9.13 malam

[What's on your mind..?]

Was having dinner of asam pedas + ikan goreng when this thought came to mind..everybody; each and every individual have different things on their mind right? (yeah, of course everybody knows that..teehee) And what we think depends on who we are. Take for example, an elderly person who is living on his/her own without any family. And also without a job. What do you think will be on his mind? He could be thinking where his next meal will come from? Where could he find the money to support his daily or medical expenses? Or maybe he will think what will happen if he had a fall at home or anywhere else. And worst still, he will died without anyoneknowing about it. As for someone who is rich and maybe has everything, he will probably be thinking where and when will his next holiday be. Or how to make more money, how to maintain his current lifestyle. Or thinking of how to spend his million dollars. But maybe, he could also be thinking who his enemies are. Who are his "so called friends"? Are they after his money or friendship?

Similarly goes people working in an organisation. The bosses will be thinking about their meetings, how to maintain their business. Or managing difficult staff under him. Whereas for the clerks and those small fry, they will be thinking about their work and the deadlines. Or thinking about their colleagues (which will later lead to office gossip *wink*). As for the cleaners, they will be thinking of which floors, places or departments that they will have to clean up after finishing a particular place/floors/departments.

This also goes to thinking at our age. When we are kids, we always think of playing around with other kids. Play..play..play. That's the only thought that goes in their mind. But when we grow up, being teenagers we might be thinking about that girl/boy that we have a crush on. Or even thinking of the teacher we had a crush on? opss..hee, that's puppy love eh..As we grow older, we will think of settling down and having a family of our own. When we grow old, we will think about our kids. The conclusion of my ramblings is we each and every individual have our own thinking that might or might not be affected by the surroundings...ramblings huh? hee..:)

So what's on your mind tonite? Mine?? Got to work tomorrow, that's what I'm thinking..urhh!!