Once A Broken Angel: 07/01/2003

Monday, July 14

[One Final Entry]

So sorry people, I haven't been updating here for quite a while. I realised that this blog is still being visited. Well, I've been busy updating in another site, that's why..eheh! So guess this is my final entry here, guys! And welcome to my new home here.

But pardon me, as the new site is still under minor tweaking here and there. Nevertheless, it's running fine. So I shall see you there then?

Ciao!

Roger and out for the final entry here!

Have moved to kiezamy.diaryland.com

[Back-post edition 11 - This is touchlink..]

14th Jul 2003

1308 hrs

*long sigh*, just finish catching up with the wajib blogs..eheh! Why is this so? Coz my internet connection at home decided to ditch me, isk! So for the time being (hope it won't be that long..erkss,till the bill is paid up..) I got to do with posting and reading and even surfing during the office hours. Bah..!!

Anyway, my weekend has been a worried one (something to do with the title I put up today) but all is over and done with. What a relief that the things that crossed my mind during that period didn't happen. So my Friday and Saturday were spent worrying. Sunday was nothing much, doing the washing and stuff.

Right now, I'm putting up a "disappearance" act. eheh! Sorry Nen, I've been so quiet lately...ermm, got things and problems to sort out. I'll be "back". Hope it's really soon. My life is kinda of messy right now, but I'm sorting it out bit by bit. Have already settled quite a major problem over the weekend. So it'll be quite a less thorny ride now.

I got things on my mind but not a word to put to it.

Got things to talk about but can't to seem to spit it now. Be back later eh?

Have a good Monday, not a bluey one..

People said that I'm strong, I've never let a problem get to me. I'm all smiley all the time..but is that what I really am?

Current Read: Sehangat Asmara - Aisya Sofea

[Back-post edition 10 - Anything & Everything]

10th Jul 2003

1321 hrs

hmm..got so much to write about. First thing, I was again late for the office! Yeah, what do you expect when I only get to catch some forty winks at nearly 5 in the morning? Reason? Here goes. I had just posted my entry here last night and was already in bed. Reading the book and trying to return his call (he misscalled me while I was jotting down the last entry) at the same time. When I heard a voice. Thinking it's my grandma snoring, I looked down on her (mine is a double bunk bed). But she was fast asleep. I heard the voice again. And this time, I just leaped off my bed. It's my grandpa. He's bending over, with his head down. Oh God! "Tok, kenapa ni?" I ran over to him, helping him out. My mom and grandma hearing the commotion also woked up. "Tok nak apa?" "Nak air." And that marks the beginning of a sleepless night. After that little commotion, we decided to retreat to our bedroom after seeing that he had fallen asleep. And me, back to trying to call him (having a bad reception on his side). Awhile later, after finishing our short conversation, I heard my grandma calling out to me. Ran over to the kitchen. Grandpa was on the toilet floor. He fell down again and my grandma is trying to help him out. I rushed over, helped him up and walked him slowly to his bedroom. Told me, he was hungry and wanted some biscuits. Made him some and he feel asleep again soon after. Thinking everything is fine now, we again try to get some sleep. But at this time, I was already worried. So I decide to read the book for awhile when suddenly I heard a very loud noise coming from my grandpa's bedroom. Again, I leaped from my bed. Grandma and Mom rushed out too. He was lying against the wardrobe, trying to get up. "Tok cari apa, sampai kat sini?" "Cari air." "Kan air ada kat atas meja tu." We were now very worried about the sudden change is his behaviour. So me, my grandma and mom decide to stay up. We were sitting down, talking about his condition when again I heard some noise. Rushed over to his room. Saw him sitting with his torchlight, shining it on the table beside his table. "Tok cari apa?" "Biskut, tadi kan letak sini." "Eh mana ada. Tadi kan Tok makan kat luar." "Tadi letak sini. Macamana korang cakap ni??!" He appeared agitated at this point. "Tok nak biskut ke?" "A'ahlah, nak makan. Iskk!" He was grumbling to himself. I rushed out, get him some biscuits and water. Soon after, he felt asleep again. By this time, it's already nearly 4 am. We were all getting more worried when he woke up from sleep suddenly and started to mumble to himself. And throughout the night, he kept waking up to ease himself. By around 5, he's already fast asleep. Told my grandma, I need to catch some sleep. Felt asleep with so much worries for him.

Moving on, the Iranian twins had been flown home early this morning after a prayer session involving the Singapore's Mufti Syed Isa Semait and Singapore's Minister-in-Charge of Muslim Affairs Yaacob Ibrahim, which were held at the Ba'alwie Mosque yesterday. Over a 100 members of the Iranian community also paid their last respect to the twins. Hope their souls rest in peace with their last wish fulfilled. To be separated. Semoga roh mereka di tempatkan bersama orang-orang yang solih, insyallah.

On another issue: Chewing gum is back! Yeah, it's finally back here after 11 years (wow..that's a very long time eh? And how old was I at that time..erkss! 15 years old only and being deny the luxury of chewing on a chewing gum..eheh! Well, I did got my share of it. A lot of it..) Rejoice chewing-gummers!! As for me, chewing gum doesn't really appeal to me anymore. But if I got the chance (with a little smuggling across the Causeway) or while I was across the Causeway, I helped myself to it. :)

So long entry isn't? That's about it then.

Hungry now.

[Back-post edition 9 - Routine]

9th Jul 2003

2311 hrs

Got to wake up early 'morrow..wake up early, wake up early..erkss! Just heard the clock tick, 11pm! So just a short update, ok.

I was late this morning. Really late! Just couldn't drag myself out of bed. And it's like I'm so broke now. Kalau tak, boleh aje naik cab. So in the end, sms my boss saying that I will be late , might reached office at around 9.30 am. Alasannya? Was not feeling well (eheh..tipu sket aa..) Reached office at 9.20 am, spent the whole morning going thru my notes to prepare for the sharing session (but in the end, the sharing session only involves a teeny bit of my part..cehh!)

Afternoon, clear up some funding payment. Followed by the sharing session which lasted for around an hour. Was back at the office nearly 5. At first, thought of staying back to finish up some work and also to make for being late this morning..but by 5.45 I was already out of the office..eheh!

Evening at home was a routine. Dinner, tv or surfing till bedtime. In between, do some reading, sms-ing or phone calls. After that, is the bed.

So now it's to the bed I have to go so as not to be late again tomorrow.

He called me just now. So glad to hear his voice. Been missing him so bad especially tonite.

erkss..esok nak pakai baju apa eh? ermm..

[Back-post edition 8 - Till Death Do Us Apart]

8th Jul 2003

2312 hrs

Dari DIA kita datang, padaNya kita kembali.. The death of the Iranian twins came as a blow to the Iranians community here and back home, also to those who had been following the updates of the operation to separate them. The news came shortly after the press conference announcing the success of the operation. But shortly after that, Ladan passed away followed by Laleh 2 hours later. Seeing their joyful faces hours before the operations griped people's heart. May their souls rest in peace.

A colleague of mine passed away too earlier this morning after being hospitalised for heart attack last week. He passed away at 3 am this morning leaving behind his wife and daughter who will be taking her 'A' Levels later this year. Even though, I did not knew him personally and never talked to him before I'm always aware of his presence due to his massive figure. He's was a very fat man, always dozing off during talks and meetings. May his soul too rest in peace.

All these gripping news today jolted me a little. How precious life is. Ajal tak kira masa. Bila-bila sahaja kita boleh di jemputNya.Tapi apa persediaan kita? Kalau di fikir-fikirkan memang banyak lagi yang kita nak capai semasa hayat kita ni. Tapi berkesempatan ke? Dan kadang-kadang dalam mencapai keinginan duniawi, akhirat kita tergadai. Akhirnya, tiada apa yang di bawa pulang saat maut menjemput kita. And yes, it scares me..alot.

Anyway, life goes on. (I just hate this liner!) Things got to be done. Work got to be completed:

Prepare for tomorrow NFS@Gov Training Session
Get copies of SYD's Pac@Gov weekly claim reimbursement
Complete and submit the Business Continuity Plan (BCP) by this Friday
Get feedback for BCP training schedule

ermm..anything else? Think that's about it. Anyway, remember the feeling I had yesterday evening? Well, it sort of stay, marred only by waking up a teeny late (but still reaching the office early..err, not so early but earlier then 9am when my office hours begin at 8.30 am). But the rest of the day went fine.

Yihaa! Tomorrow is midweek already..*S*

Note: Seems to have much more things to talk about but now? ermm..gone, so that is then!

[Back-post edition 7 - What A Feeling..]

7th Jul 2003

2324 hrs

So what shall it be tonite?

I'm feeling sleepy already. But it's only 11pm. Will tried to stay awake later and do some more readings of this interesting book I got back from KL.

Anyway, just a little update before I'm make my way to Dreamland. Well, currently I do have some under goings plan. Hope everything goes fine, insyallah. And I also find myself possessing some reincarnation of a long-lost spirit..haha, don't knowlah. But I have this feeling in me that want me to keep myself going on. Tapi, janganlah feeling ni kejap je kan. Esok-esok padam. So to put to practise this great feeling that I have now, I shall have to start tonite by having an early nite (erkss..now still early?)

He called a few times today too.(eh, maybe this add up to this feeling that I'm having..agaknya kot, eheh..) He's fine there. Sure hope he will be back soon.

By the way, before I forget..thanks to Nano. Sorry, cause I came down unannounced. Tetau, timbul jek. But thanks for putting me up for the night. *S*

erkss..i'm really sleepy. But before that, a little something I discovered here. Actually it's a linkage I found from a blog site but alas, I've forgotten from which blog issit:

This is mine -

Sagittarius & B-Type:

for Women

Personality: You enjoy a carefree life but that's why your indecisiveness might trouble you at times. Decisions are made so quickly that you tend to regret them afterwards. One thing you do right is choosing your friends. Concentrate on one aspect instead of many or else your focus fades too fast.

Love Tendency: Bright and vivacious; you are surround by popularity. This is why there are quite a few admirers who are just waiting for you to recognize them. You, on the other hand, enjoy fishing them out of the sea. Anything else is too easy for you. Commitment seems to be a difficult matter for you because you seek for the fun things in life more than tranquility.

Life: Your great sense of humor usually elevates you out of the crowd. This asset will get you far with people and with your pursuit of happiness. If your organization skills will improve, you will have a greater chance to make it far in terms of your career.

Match

Good Match: O-type Aries and Leos are people whom you would be able to share a happy relationship with for a lifetime. AB-type Sagittarius fit into this category as well. B-type and O-type Libras and AB-type Aquarius would also match with you if you are willing to put in some effort.

Bad Match: A-type Pisces people can somber your day because they drag you down with them. A-type Virgos are best to be avoided before matters get worse.

Alrite then, I'm off for the night!

Current Read: Cinta Pertama - Norhayati Berahim

psst..guess who I met on the way back here at the highway? I met the Msian PM (or should I say ex-PM?)! What a suprise!!

[Back-post edition 6 - Post Holiday Blues]

7th Jul 2003

1340 hrs

Written @ 1315 hrs

How am I feeling now? ermm..my feelings is on a roller-coaster. Kejap kat atas, kejap kat bawah. Feels good at one point and down in the other. argghh! What am I suffering from? Post-holiday blues. Yes, that's it. And plus, today's Monday making it all more worse...urhh..

My holiday? Great! I got back yesterday evening; 10.30 am coach from Ampang, Kuala Lumpur. ermm..think things are fine now. Hopefully. And now I'm thinking of making my way down again. hahah..teruk kan?! Baik dok saner je, senang..eheh! Well, like I already said. Intention tu memang ada. Tapi it's not easy. So kenalah plan betul-betul. Tak boleh terjah camtu je.

While I was there, went down to Ikea @ One Utama (eh..am I correct?) Nano wanted to do some shopping as Ikea is having it's moving sale. But alas, nearly everything were wiped out and it's only the 2nd day of sale. Dah jadi macam pejabat Ahmad Nisfu in 3 Abdul movie...hee, sapu bersih. After that, went for dinner + looking for tulang at pasar malam (no tulang can be seen too!)

Managed to catch Charlie's Angel: Full Throttle and Terminator 3: Rise of The Machines. Charlie's Angel, is good plain fun. Nothing much for the storyline but the action-packed sequence was great. Just get your heart pumping with each action. And I love Cameron Diaz too. She just so cute, clumsy and funny! As for T3, well..what can I say when Arnold is acting as the Terminator. He make one good Terminator. But this time, it's "She'll be back.." Go and watch these two movies, highly recommended. :)

What else..ermm, I've survived half of Monday. So another half to go, yihaa!

Gotta go now. Have to complete some returns before the deadline tomorrow, ciao!

Dear, that little act of yours really touched me..*S*