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[chatting with Nenny @ YM]

So sorry if my entries lately had not been that regular as before. And have been running out of steam. Don't ask me why..one minute I could be very hype up about everything and the other minute I will turn to this quiet and moody character. Well, partly coz my "motivation" is not back yet from kampung. It's been nearly 2 weeks. Feel so lost. And the other thing is I got a lot of my mind lately. Sampaikan I made some drastic decision. Tak nak fikirlah sekarang ni samada what I did betul ke tak. Let me face it when it really comes.

Finally, my grandfather's x ray results are out. He's diagnosed with cancer! What a real shocker,didn't expect it to turn out that bad. So now, he will be having the cancer lasered or ops. Just hope everything will be fine. Was quite worried and sad hearing he said this during our conversation this evening.."Entah sampai, entah tidak. Dari sakit gini, baik ambik je nyawa ni.." Baru je semalam, I was having this conversation with my grandma. Told her I want Grandpa to be there at my wedding, to become one of the witness. Before this, I was hoping our Tok Guru (he used to be by mom's guru ngaji)to attend my wedding coz that's what he always said when he come to our house for visits. But now that he had passed away, all my hopes are on Grandpa to be there on my wedding day. Panjangkanlah umur dia dalam kesihatan, Ya Allah...

I also realised that life is getting tougher for me lately. Makin meningkat usia, makin rumit hidup ni..

So..on a totally different note, what shall I get for Nenny on her birthday this Friday? Had this idea in mind..teehee..

Feeling so lost..out of missing you..